Yep...it is a new year. During Relief Society we were all asked to consider enduring well as our resolutions....and actually that summed up everything I wanted to work on. So my resolution will be to endure well. I will keep complaining to a minimum, I will try to be calmer, be more patient, and keep the gospel close to me in all that happens this year and hence forth. Of course keep in mind this will be a work in progress and won't just happen overnight. haha
I have so many hopes and dreams for this year. I am currently in my last busiest semester and if it wasn't for the timing of classes offered that I need I would graduate this year.....but alas it is not meant to be. So winter semester 2013 it is. I want to do well in my classes this year (I make sure I always do well, but it is always one of my goals). I am taking 6 classes this semester: stratigraphy and sedimentology, solid earth and geophysics, historical geology, petrology, geology seminar, and jogging (for a little stress release). I also want to make my research a bigger priority this semester.....which I know will be hard with my work load for this semester.
My dreams for this year won't happen and I know it. It will have to be for another time. I know of many who drop out of college to have kids, but that is not me in the slightest. In fact I laugh at that possibility, yet sometimes I find myself (during the hardest part of the semester) wishing I could just stop my education and pop out a couple of kiddlets.
But I know that would be a mistake. I believe in getting an education and making that a priority while you can.
I understand there are circumstances in which that can't happen and I don't fault people who have kids instead of going to college..but it's those that can and should get an education that make me raise an eyebrow. My question to them is "what are you going to do when you have 2+ children and something happens to your husband, are you going to rely solely on family for help and/or get a job that doesn't have benefits or you don't enjoy?" I know those people will do all they can for their families...but if they had even gotten an associates they could get a slightly better job and be more comfortable. Some have told me that they will go back to college......my question to them is "how sure can you be?" Some who read this may get offended....that is not my point of this. I am also a firm believer in everyone should have kids when it is right for them and every circumstance is different.
Having said all this, I will get an education. Daniel and I will work it out so we can both can get all the education we desire. I know some people may throw my question back at me and ask how sure I can be that I will have kids after my education. I am 100% sure. Whether it is in this life or the next (much more preferably this one), I will have kids. I welcome biological children and those I may adopt. I don't see a difference in either, because they would be my angels.
This is just my personal opinion and what I will personally do in my life...as impatient as I will be in this process. When it is right in my life it will happen.
This is probably as personal as I will ever get on a blog, but it is something that has been on my mind. To me having kids will be the greatest blessing in my life, but I know (for me) I should wait a little while longer since I don't know how my pregnancy will effect me (history of Hyperemesis Gravidarum in my family) and therefore my schooling and work.
Cheers to 2012!
And also a shout out to Boyd and Lindsay who will be welcoming a beautiful baby girl into their family very soon!!!!
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