Schist is not Gneiss (pronounced nice)

That's basically how I feel today. Sometimes I wish that schist would just leave me alone. I feel like I can never do anything right even when I am putting in the extra effort. I am sick and tired of feeling like people who should care don't. Lets just say today isn't the best day in the world. It's not even a bad one really...all this is just coming from a semester of no sleep and constant running around. You would think thanksgiving break would be a great time to relax and be thankful...Well I am thankful....but just tired so it appears I am cranky.

This thanksgiving will be spent working on schoolwork. yay....
Then it will be Christmas break"shortly" after, where it will be spent trying to enjoy the time I don't have to worry about school...but in reality I will be thinking about school because I am already nervous about winter semester.

I just feel wiped, drained, and like my brain has been molested. Yes, I said molested. Doesn't make too much sense to me either. haha

I know this sounds whiney and a "you have done it to yourself" moment, which is true, I chose my workload and even added to it when I picked up a job mid-way into the semester fully knowing that this semester would be best if I didn't work. I don't regret these decisions, just wish sleep would actually give me rest and that I would at least have my weekends.

This semester I have no classes on Friday...what do I do? ---Spend my whole day on campus working on work and Saturdays and just recently Sundays have been added to this disastrous mess.

I miss a lot of church, not because I don't have a testimony, but homework is slipping into my Sundays and I am having trouble feeling welcomed. It has been nearly a year since we have come to this ward. I would love to do VT, but I literally have no time. Maybe I could fit it in during my few hours of chosen free time, but right now that sounds like even more work and something else to worry about.

I am grateful that at least through all of this I am working towards something I love- Geology. Sure, I just spent this entire time complaining, but this semester has also been my favorite by far. I have great friends, you know who you are :) .....and I am learning so much. Geology is one of the most spectacular things about my life and I want it to define who I am one day. I have many goals to set to improve. One is to work harder in the week so I can have my Sundays...this may not happen until next semester, but it is a thought constantly on my mind. I love my job, though it is the extra chunk of work in the week that sets me over. It also helps me support my husband and myself and save for a future. It is also the step in my school career that will help me get a job once I graduate.

So if you read this I hope you read to the end....I know it was mindless rambling complaining about life being full of schist, but I do appreciate my blessings and I am grateful for the particular challenge this semester is giving to me because it is showing that yes I can juggle a large workload and still be successful.

Sarah